Find the beauty in the simple. I am just one person recording my thoughts as they come in this 'journal' space. May they make you think.... provoke something. If you want to comment, please do!
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
Sometimes it is hard to communicate clearly with family. I struggle with my Dad. He is someone I admire, respect, love and look up to. I do not wear rose coloured glasses however. I see him for who he is, good and bad. The latest issue for me is that in requesting his help, and having his advice come back totally opposite to what (a) the professional said and (b) what I wanted to hear. My gut is to trust him. He has far more experience than I. However, the professional we hired has more experience than him! I am struggling within myself. I guess once again, all I wanted was approval of my decision on the house I am purchasing. His advice is unneeded, but not unwanted. Funny how we daughters still revert to little girls inside sometimes. As time away from the initial conversation has occurred, I am able to add some perspective. Perhaps he is not picturing ME in the house. And I also wonder if perhaps he really has lost sight of who I really am. What matters to me, what I value, what I don't. I have consciously decided not to follow the family 'status' or purchase cars, homes or things for those reasons. Sometimes I struggle, I want those things.... I had those things... but I don't NEED those things. If I can focus on simple things, the rest of the stuff will not block the way to my dreams and happiness.