Pretty soon you're gonna get older
Time may change me
But you can't trace time....
How does time change us? What is time? Is it linear with yesterday today and tomorrow or is it something far less classifiable? Something that is infinite and yet finite in the moment? Are we the sum of the moments or the value of individual moments?
Isnt it interesting that we are such slaves to time. Our own invention. We set ourselves up for "when I do this, then I can do that..." or "when I am suchandsuch an age I will..." Hmm. Perhaps it is this relentless pursuit of things in order to build toward something else that strips the actual meaning from life. This is hardly my idea... I was listening to philosopher Mark Rowlands last night. He made a good point... we go to school and work hard so we can get into University. We get into University and work hard for a good job. The good job is had to get the house. The house is had to get the.... and so on. STOP!!! Why must everything lead to another? We force everything. Are so afraid to go with our guts and listen to the soul.
And I can say this. I am listening to my soul, finally feeling things I have hidden. Giving way to time and letting things bubble forth. Ruminating on it. Rolling with the moment more. Feeling the energy in what I do and what I choose. Finally seeing some of the path that my life has taken and seeing the interweaving of experiences to bring me to the now. The good, the bad. The mistakes, the success. All is relative, and relative in time. Time mellows us, softens the memories. Gilds the good, adds a haze to the bad. What is time but a natural force we cannot stop, cannot harness, cannot see nor taste-- yet it is present -- indisputable in its presence.
We change. We flow. People talk of time being a river. Perhaps it is a water cycle instead. Changes forms, melding into different places, affecting situations differently, yet always returning as water at some point. We change, we affect and effect, yet we always return to being who we are-- whether you are brave enough to look inside or not.
