What a wonderful post I read today on a blog I follow. It was the reading that sparked a moment of realization for me. The discomfort I felt last night was due to the unknown. The unknown heart and mind of another. The unknown intent of those around us. The unknown route of the path that I am on.
It is when you begin to feel stable that life seems to send you a wobble! When perhaps, you are confronted with reconciling the person you think you are with the person circumstances reflect back to you. It is the challenge to validate the emotions we have swirling and roiling at times in our bellies. Challenge as by validating them we are accepting they exist even if they are less than flattering. Anger, jealously, envy, fear, animosity. And funny enough, we are so hard on ourselves for having these feelings but if you voiced it to a friend they would probably understand. Nod their head, and if they were wise say something about determining whether it is a valid emotion or a roadblock you have created for yourself.
I know I create my own roadblocks and pitfalls. Yet when I work/act from my heart (my lily.... smile) beautiful souls come in. People who shine. A few such people have come my way like this lately. The impulse to reach out is strong. All I am doing is soul-ful in that I am acting with the inner me and less the socialized rational me. And it feels so good.
So. Into the unknown I tread. I have no roadmap or guide. No guide beyond my own heart, soul and experiences. All I have to lose is perhaps a piece of my heart here and there, but in that pain comes beauty and I think.... I think I am willing to risk it after being closed for so long.
My thought for today from Bill Ferguson ... As your walls of protection come down, you create love.
We put up our walls of protection to avoid hurt, but the hurt we are avoiding isn't outside ourselves, it's inside. So instead of keeping the hurt out, our walls of protection keep the hurt in. Instead of protecting us, our walls push away love, create opposition, and bring us more hurt.
The most powerful protection doesn't come from your walls, It comes from your love. When you open your heart and express love, you melt opposition.
Now look in the face of someone who is open with little or no walls of protection. What do you see? This type of person is happy and alive. This person has freedom, inner peace and a joy for living.
