Or so they say.
I went to a wedding and despite my usual lack of enjoyment of weddings I found myself deeply touched by this one. The ceremony was so much a celebration and embracing of these two people. Both them embracing a new path together, but also them gathering all us around them and pulling it together. The ceremony reflected them. Their vows were beautiful. I thought to myself "they get it". It seemed they understood the deep connection you need to someone as a friend, lover, companion, partner to make it work. Damn. Wish I had the same level of knowledge these two have when I decided to say yes to the marriage thing!
Instead of envious, I felt joyful at their glowing love. It inspired me somewhat. To actually entertain that I too might find someone I connect with on that deep level and be able to make a space and move forward with them. Marriage is an institution and not something I feel any pressure to enter again. I was lucky enough to be married to a great friend, and to have two great kids. A re-do of that is not necessary or possible really. But to feel that depth of connection, that love and soulful connect in your life would be beautiful.
As I work to be the best person I can be, authentic, honest, and to let some of my walls down.... perhaps I too will be able to find that love. Perhaps. Just knowing it is out there and possible however, is enough for now.
