Not easy
Realizing what you thought you wanted
Was not the case
Running faster to standing still
Trying harder and reaching farther and being more
Yet,
Being less.
It is what I am learning
What I am gaining
To stop and see and feel and be
Turning and catching that glimpse of me and recognizing her
Opening up and letting them, it, all
In
Terrifying
In its beautiful possibilities and options
Endless in the now
Wanting no promises or securities but honest clarity
Just the real now
Present and beautiful
Filling me
Testing and pushing me
