.... what is the sound you ask? I don't myself know but I imagine it differs for each person. I wonder at times whether I myself am settling. When reality forces me into the here and now, not where I feel my inner self leaning.
This question popped to my thoughts after listening to a song with that line in it. Perhaps the sound is different for each person. Willing to bet a huge majority are unwilling to even hear the sound. We have all done it and then clasped our hands to our ears (metaphorically speaking of course) and refused to admit it. As I type this I cannot help but wonder if the 'settling' so many of us do is what results in the oft talked about or blamed midlife crisis. Hmmm.
In the past 8 months or so I have put myself under a microscope for me to see my inner workings. Looked closely and cringed silently at times. Smiled happily also. Stood proudly. The result is that I am now standing here and no longer feeling less than whole for being who I am. If I intimidate you, that is your reaction and not me forcing that upon you. Should you take the moment to see me... open to me and not what you perceive you will feel my full warmth. I am beginning to see my own beauty amid the cracks and crevices and imperfect self.
Have I settled. For sure. In everything? No way. To settle is to never challenge yourself. To never try and never fail. Is settling a permanent state? I hope not. There are areas in which I have settled, and hope that as I gain wisdom and see my own path more clearly that I will be able to move away from simply settling... and take that active step towards something else.
Is it bad to settle? Nah. Not if you only do it sometimes. Not if to engage in one area you must settle in another. We cannot have it all at the same time. But we can have it all... I think just not on a time frame we set.
I want it all.... but I will take the pieces I have for now.
