I imagine that everyone has felt broken at one time or another. Sometimes I think to be human means keeping all our pieces together the best we can and trying not to fall apart all at once. As I grow, open up to the life lessons around me I recognize I spin and spin and spin in hope of centripetal force keeping me together.
A question came to me the other day, "why do you pretend to be so strong when you are not?". It is not that I 'pretend' to be strong, because I AM STRONG. I have survived and risen above a lot. I continue on. But, I am human and fragile too. For all the strength I have, there are areas of fragility. We mask that. I mask that. Perhaps that is why I was asked why I pretend.
I cannot explain my cracks. I cannot explain the fault lines that have developed as a result of life. I don't really want to explain them as the doing of it forces the re-living of many of those "less than stellar" life experiences. But I welcome those who want to know me, to know me. I am open. Ask. I am always looking to change and grow.
