Outward calmness
subdued and still
for some displays contentment
I am quelching the inner terror

Pressure sensed as moist humid air clinging
Breathing pinched tight
extremities cold
Waterlily stem withered under the hold

Life and decisions
me you we us them
community
inner and outer with yes challenging no

Too many voices buzzing
decisions beyond my current grasp
I retreat
Searching a haven