I think there is a book with the title of Living, Learning, Loving. It seems right for a title right now. I have been so incredibly busy with life, finding but a moment to stop and write here has almost been impossible! I have been living my life fully and trying to experience each moment. Living my job is part of who I am, and it gives me incredible satisfaction. For me, my job is not just a job but instead an opportunity that an organization has given me to live out my passion to educate and connect communities to new ideas and knowledge. When I have the chance each day to support this why would I NOT be driven to live each moment fully?
Work also provides ample chances for learning. Managing others is a learning curve for me. Determining how much training is needed when you balance out people's desire for control and input into their individual jobs. Making the shift from the educator to manager has been more challenging than I anticipated! It has made me appreciate my own skill as an educator, and also attempt to incorporate my true belief in people into a managerial style.
Personally I continue to learn to balance work and life. Challenged daily to be a better Mummy, to be fully present and loving. Learning to open oneself up again is also a lesson. Sometimes it seems we open up too soon, other times it feels impossible no matter how much we desire it. It feels good to learn what it is that we need emotionally, mentally, and to feel comfortable recognizing that many people are wonderful but just not good for you. Learning means accessing knowledge. Knowledge is powerful. More powerful when you are able to use that knowledge when it is most applicable....
And I am using that knowledge in how I love. Being honest with what I need, what I want, what I am willing to let go and what I am willing to move towards. Loving your children, your friends, your pets is easy. Allowing someone into the darker recesses of your heart is so much harder. More complicated. Without the purity of the love for your children, the simplicity of true friendships, that intimate and soul-revealing love is so challenging. In my living, I have learned, that loving is not always simple. Loving intimately requires letting go.
Regularly it crosses my mind that in both the good and bad of my life there have been lessons. Lessons that have made me ready to be where I am now. Ready to open up to loving and being loved while completely exposing my inner self.
