One step closer to you....

Each day I take one step closer to you.  Who are you?  I don't know yet.  What you look like, what you do and where you live I have yet to discover.  I do know some things about who you are.  You are an individual with a strong personality that equals mine.  You laugh and do it easily.  When it comes to life, you take big bumps and lumps in stride and keep your eye on the prize.  Its all good.  Part of the journey.  I know you care about people, about community and society as a whole.  You do your part.  Whatever that is, big or small.  You know what it is to be a parent, and appreciate the challenges and rewards.  When issues come up in your interpersonal life you deal with them head on.  Say what you need to say, ask the questions you need answered and don't go the route of passive-aggressive.  Just like doing what I love and am passionate about is important to me, you feel the same way.  You need challenge, and go for the opportunities that present themselves.  It isn't about the money for you, its about the challenge, personal growth and satisfaction.

See, I am learning what it is I need myself and that I need these from you too.  Just because I choose to be single right now does not mean that I don't think that you are out there.  Maybe I have met you, maybe not.  But more importantly I know that these things are possible.  Some of it is blind faith, some of it hope, but a lot of it is that if you don't come along I will be okay with that too.  As I meet other people along the way in the hopes of getting to you, I will learn more about myself and grow as a result.  Oh, I want to meet you.  I want to have someone like you in my life.  To be challenged, to feel that true intimacy and connection where I can open up completely.  Where I don't just show you one or two compartments of myself (like I have done in all my relationships this far) but throw the doors wide open.  Where being vulnerable is safe.

And in return I will give you something pretty amazing.  Me.  Completely.  I will be your teammate, and co-pilot.  You can count on me to support you, believe in you and be there.  Though it will be so hard for me, I will trust you and open myself to you.  Share my ideas, dreams and passions.  You can come inside my life.  Feel my energy and share in it.  There will be a confidence between us, where we trust and respect each other without any need for jealousy or ownership.  Simple. 

Though I have never had this, I know it is possible.  Its out there!  And I am willing to wait.  Wait to be surprised by it or to be an architect in building it with you.  You are out there.  As I become more self aware I take one step closer to you.