Sometimes questions must be left unanswered and paths left untravelled. I wonder though, how do some people seem better able to just shrug their shoulders and putter along? Learning to let go, move forward, take a new path.... all good things. What has passed, has passed and isnt anymore. Though as humans we cannot help but wonder what if? What if I said this or that, what if I had just held on a little longer, what if I had said what I wanted to say sooner? Notice that my unanswered questions all seem to relate to people??
So many people have entered and left my life. Many I think have no idea of their impact. No clue that a piece of me left with them and a piece of them is still in me. In losing a parent I was blessed to have had the chance to close the circle and answer the questions before death interfered. In a way, it is not having death between you and another person you have not closed the circle with that seems so bothersome. My perception based on the way I feel anyway. I realize other people guard who they are more closely, keep their cards to their chest. Not I. I am me, fully, completely, wholly and in the last year and a half.... no one else and okay with it. Perhaps that is why I need to ask the questions, close the circle with others. When I open myself (even if they choose not to receive) if the connect is made I need to learn the lesson and see both sides to close the loop.
Could it ever be I wonder,
is the loop closed for us?
Too right with you being you
and I being I,
unexpected and even addictive.
The circle is yet to be completed,
what will be will be.
Truth has a way of coming out,
and the truth of what was and may be
still remains to be seen.
We all must reach for our happiness,
unlocking it from within.
Have you found yours?
Asked for more,
what you deserve?
I'd like to be your key
flinging open the doors of your heart
letting the sun warm
and beautiful happen.
But you are there
and I am here.
I am not sure I know
you
the way I thought I did.
This possibility cuts deep
and
I hope to be proven wrong
sometime
somewhere
somehow.
