As I sat in the quiet of my house this evening, happy to just be -- I realized that I am ready to fly. Fly into some uncharted areas. And you know what I realized? I wasn't afraid of getting hurt myself, or even of failing. What I was most afraid of was hurting those around me.
Where does that come from I wonder? I am willing to take risks, give it a go, just terrified of screwing up and hurting those around me. Perhaps this is experience and my subconscious poking around in my head? You think?!!
Its my guess that being ready to fly means setting out those flight plans, taking safety precautions, checking fuel levels and the weather..... but in the end you have to jump. You can only control so many factors. And like everything..... there is a point where you just have to go with the gut and DO IT!
Screwing up, hurting people you love and genuinely care about really sucks. Carrying the knowledge of what you did does too! We can only work to not repeat our errors, do our best to make amends, and grow from it. Not make it a big waste unjustified.
I am afraid to take the leap
I am happy to make the flight plans and fuel up
Taking safety precautions makes me feel like I am not repeating past errors
Yet....
Sometime I have to jump and test my wings.
Believe in myself, and it.
Whatever the it is.
A person or situation.
Just do it.
Try.
Big breath and .......