Sunday, August 1, 2010

Metamorphosis: Instant Chemistry

Beautiful and strikes me for many reasons... You? Click on title, read and see the beautiful picture.


Metamorphosis: Instant Chemistry

All you need is love

Or so they say.

I went to a wedding and despite my usual lack of enjoyment of weddings I found myself deeply touched by this one. The ceremony was so much a celebration and embracing of these two people. Both them embracing a new path together, but also them gathering all us around them and pulling it together. The ceremony reflected them. Their vows were beautiful. I thought to myself "they get it". It seemed they understood the deep connection you need to someone as a friend, lover, companion, partner to make it work. Damn. Wish I had the same level of knowledge these two have when I decided to say yes to the marriage thing!

Instead of envious, I felt joyful at their glowing love. It inspired me somewhat. To actually entertain that I too might find someone I connect with on that deep level and be able to make a space and move forward with them. Marriage is an institution and not something I feel any pressure to enter again. I was lucky enough to be married to a great friend, and to have two great kids. A re-do of that is not necessary or possible really. But to feel that depth of connection, that love and soulful connect in your life would be beautiful.

As I work to be the best person I can be, authentic, honest, and to let some of my walls down.... perhaps I too will be able to find that love. Perhaps. Just knowing it is out there and possible however, is enough for now.

Time to process

Sometimes I think I've lost my mind
I thought I left my past behind
I live my life and all I know is
Follow your dream and don't let go

No one can live for me
No one can see the things I see
I walk this road
No one can tell me how to be
It's my destiny

There is no right, there is no wrong
There is no place where I belong
I've done my time
I've held it strong and
My life is all about this song

No one can live for me
No one can see the things I see
I walk this road
No one can tell me how to be
It's my destiny

If I threw them all away
Would it change?
No
I would live my life again, rearranged
There's a magic in my heart
That I feel
~Lenny Kravitz~

I am working to process things the way I always do. Take it, weigh it, find the lesson, process, move forward. Sigh. I thought I had a few key things figured out. And I do! But others are just too unpredictable. Blame it on the heart.

Where I am is here. Like Lenny said, no one can tell me how to be and it is my dream which I have to live. To live someone else's life path no matter how successful you are at that is a failure as it will never be true to your soul. It will never feel right.