A lot of the self-help books, alternative spirituality movements and even 'the secret' has tapped into the concept of energy. Energy being something that cannot be destroyed, but is the basis of life as all living things are in constant state of energy. From what we do with our bodies, to the unseen energy that our thoughts create. Maybe the Hindu's had it right... our soul is just energy that is not destroyed but reborn. Who knows? Even in Christianity the soul and its release is a key concept, the soul cannot be destroyed-- our own unique personal energy.
"What goes around comes around"... a powerful statement on the energy in choices we make. It goes hand in hand with "what you put out is what you get back". For the last decade or so I have tried to be sure that what I put "out there" is positive energy and where possible, a true reflection of myself. I always try to see the best in others, and for the most part have been rewarded by wonderful people entering my life. Not always getting what I want, but usually getting things that have lead me alone a path which has been interesting. When talking with a friend this weekend, I realize that I am becoming more and more centred in those two beliefs and really and truly okay with just being me. I am so very far from perfect. I see each and every one of my faults clearly, and I struggle. Yet, I remind myself we all do this. When we look in the mirror we see ourselves not as others see us. We are lucky when people enter our lives that allow us to see that which others see. It can either terrify, or lift you up.
I am learning like most to just be okay with me, and trying to be okay in the NOW as I really cannot control the SOMEDAY. Even if that means working in a job that affords me happiness and personal fufillment, but not rising to upper middle class income and having the associated trappings of that. Happiness is really becoming a driving force. A force I feel driving inside me each day. The desire to be centred, happy in that space, creative and open to the experiences around me. Hmmm. Thoughts for today.
Monday, November 9, 2009
Friday, November 6, 2009
Friday Catch-up
That is right, CATCH up, not KETCH up. Sadly. I have a number of things to do for work. Sort of need to prioritize, but have this feeling like I would really like to avoid that step because it may just reveal a massive amount of SOMETHING needing doing!
So my creativity time.... not going so well this week I must admit! I have taken some time out to read. Did take some time for photos and to upload them. I have a couple of ideas for a painting I would really like to do. Hmmm. Two people in the last two days requested that I submit a creative work for Auctioning to benefit non-profits. Why does this terrify me?? I think it must be that I question other's belief in my abilities and artistic talent. Silly, I know. I cannot help but hold myself up against others.... and be put in awe of their talent. That being said, I think I WILL make the jump and have a few shots transferred onto a canvas -- like a painting and submit them. Why not. If no one likes them, I need not know! Maybe one of the shots will move someone. Isn't that all we strive for when creating something? To express ourselves and touch another?
Where else am I at these days you ask.... Happy. Smiling. Feeling an inner glow-- despite the challenges of life. My Volunteer Management course inspires me every week. This week again it lit something inside me. Once again, the desire to pursue my Masters was lit. And an area of limited research is Volunteerism, but specifically looking at it in Rural Areas and how Urban Trends will play out at the Rural level. Oh, how much I want to jump in. I even looked at the MSc in Rural Studies at Guelph.... perhaps.... should apply... hmmmm. Why not?
So, there is my week in a nutshell! Documented for myself, and anyone else who cares to read. I will come back with a focused writing once I clear some of the paperwork, jobs and STUFF that seems to always need doing!
~We are all faced with a series of great opportunities brilliantly disguised as impossible situations~ from DailyHappyDose on twitter!
So my creativity time.... not going so well this week I must admit! I have taken some time out to read. Did take some time for photos and to upload them. I have a couple of ideas for a painting I would really like to do. Hmmm. Two people in the last two days requested that I submit a creative work for Auctioning to benefit non-profits. Why does this terrify me?? I think it must be that I question other's belief in my abilities and artistic talent. Silly, I know. I cannot help but hold myself up against others.... and be put in awe of their talent. That being said, I think I WILL make the jump and have a few shots transferred onto a canvas -- like a painting and submit them. Why not. If no one likes them, I need not know! Maybe one of the shots will move someone. Isn't that all we strive for when creating something? To express ourselves and touch another?
Where else am I at these days you ask.... Happy. Smiling. Feeling an inner glow-- despite the challenges of life. My Volunteer Management course inspires me every week. This week again it lit something inside me. Once again, the desire to pursue my Masters was lit. And an area of limited research is Volunteerism, but specifically looking at it in Rural Areas and how Urban Trends will play out at the Rural level. Oh, how much I want to jump in. I even looked at the MSc in Rural Studies at Guelph.... perhaps.... should apply... hmmmm. Why not?
So, there is my week in a nutshell! Documented for myself, and anyone else who cares to read. I will come back with a focused writing once I clear some of the paperwork, jobs and STUFF that seems to always need doing!
~We are all faced with a series of great opportunities brilliantly disguised as impossible situations~ from DailyHappyDose on twitter!
Monday, November 2, 2009
Dreams
I have been reading a book "Callings: Finding and Following an Authentic Life". It is a suprisingly good read. The irony being, that I was at the library looking at something else and the book fell off the shelf to me. Serendipity?
The chapter I read last night spoke about giving space to our dreams. Not interpreting them according to other's methods, but in relation to our own life. The author notes "dreaming is about waking up. The unconscious often knows things we don't, things that in the broad daylight of consciousness remain invisible to us, just as the stars play to an empty house during the day when the sun is shining. They are meaning machines and never lie."
The point of the chapter was to delve beyond the seeming ridiculous in our dreams (last night I was rushing topless through the library at the University in search of somewhere...) and find what the unconscious is struggling with. Am I feeling exposed? Part of me that I am both proud of and yet self-conscious of and not quite acceptable to the social norms is exposed in its entirety?
This chapter really struck me. As someone who had night terrors as a child, nightmares as an adult and very vivid dreams on a regular basis-- I think there is a validity of tuning in. For example, I dream regularly of my wallet being emptied: me being left with the shell, whereas all that has importance is gone. True, I fear losing myself, having the essence of who I am stripped of me. Another regular recurrence is having an essay of major proportions due to which I have no research done and have not attended class. I think this is rooted in being afraid of failure, or being set into a situation where others expect failure. The irony being that in the conscious world I never missed class, never left essays to the last minute. I see how our unconscious takes familiar situations and twists them to express our own inner fears or concerns.
What do you dream??
The chapter I read last night spoke about giving space to our dreams. Not interpreting them according to other's methods, but in relation to our own life. The author notes "dreaming is about waking up. The unconscious often knows things we don't, things that in the broad daylight of consciousness remain invisible to us, just as the stars play to an empty house during the day when the sun is shining. They are meaning machines and never lie."
The point of the chapter was to delve beyond the seeming ridiculous in our dreams (last night I was rushing topless through the library at the University in search of somewhere...) and find what the unconscious is struggling with. Am I feeling exposed? Part of me that I am both proud of and yet self-conscious of and not quite acceptable to the social norms is exposed in its entirety?
This chapter really struck me. As someone who had night terrors as a child, nightmares as an adult and very vivid dreams on a regular basis-- I think there is a validity of tuning in. For example, I dream regularly of my wallet being emptied: me being left with the shell, whereas all that has importance is gone. True, I fear losing myself, having the essence of who I am stripped of me. Another regular recurrence is having an essay of major proportions due to which I have no research done and have not attended class. I think this is rooted in being afraid of failure, or being set into a situation where others expect failure. The irony being that in the conscious world I never missed class, never left essays to the last minute. I see how our unconscious takes familiar situations and twists them to express our own inner fears or concerns.
What do you dream??
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